Grief is a hard thing to struggle with daily but that is my
current situation. Getting up each day to keep doing the things that need my
attention are harder some days because of grief. Sometimes it is a fleeing
thought or a portion of a book that brings fresh tears to my eyes. Since last
summer, a family member has been dealing with some health issues and then my dad
passed away unexpectedly earlier this year – and the grief has hit me hard.
It has been by the grace of God, which is my faith foundation,
that I have been able to keep going. I am blessed to have a small but close
support system of those that love me and help when the burden gets to be too
much. I have wrestled with if I should even write about this on the blog, but
if it could help even one person going through the same thing, then it will be
worth it.
So how do I keep homeschooling while grieving? The short but
powerful answer is prayer. Prayer
has been my lifeline even more so during this time. When
things get too much or when the tears will not stop, I have to find a quiet
place to pray to God. According to 1 Peter 5:7 I can cast all of my cares upon
Him, because He cares for me. Then He strengthens me to keep going a little
more down the road. One of my favorite Bible verses is There are days where I alternate repeating that verse and John 3:16. By faith I
know that eventually things will start to settle and life will begin a new
normal for our family, but the grief is still fresh right now.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit” Psalm 34:18, NIV
On the days that business takes longer than usual, my
husband steps in and helps with the homeschooling. My oldest two are able to do
some of their learning independently, and the rhythm of our family studies is
soothing because of the routine. There have been days where we just had to take
off and reconnect as a family. We will go outside and enjoy the warmth of the
sunshine or play a couple of rounds of the card game Uno. The last thing that I
want is to feel like I am drowning in the grief, and distant myself from the
ones that I love.
If you are in a time of grieving too, please know that you
are not really alone. God in heaven loves you more than you can comprehend. All
you and I have to do is turn to Him and call out to Him for help. Please know
that you can email me to ask for prayer. Blessings to you!